Author: aavlx

4 AM Thoughts

So great, it’s about almost 5 am over here, yes I know the heading says 4 am, but bare with me here. All I am about to explain happened from around like 3-4 AM. School got cancelled this week due to Florence, and so my sleep schedule of course got messed up 🙂 Great news is my teachers haven’t given out any work to do online… Hopefully.

Anyways, I been talking to his guy for a couple of days, and its been great. We have been having late night, real, deep conversations. Which is really good, I enjoy these types of conversations a lot.  I love how we relate to similar things a lot, and we understand each other. He’s very kind, and idk man. Blah blah, I know its only been couple of days, but when you actually really talk, you’d be surprised what you get out of it. We also talked about music, and we have a VERY similar taste in music which is a total turn on!!! Ugh, I love it. Though, yes this seems like all good rainbows and sunshine, I feel very hesitant…

See the issue with me is, I have trust issues, and I’m lonely. After a while, it becomes the normal, and you begin to be scared to really open up to anyone. I just really fear getting hurt again and being in a similar predicament I was in last year. It sucks cause this guy is just so amazing, whether or not its a friend relationship or more than that, I’m freaking scared! What’s the point of spilling your heart out to someone, if they will just leave anyways? It’s hard to just restart with someone or open up… Revealing secrets, talking about your past, the shit gets mad tiring! I have got to stop letting my past stop me from my destiny, but geez who knew it would be this hard?? In my current situation, I have so much going on, being able to open up to someone feels so great, like I can be myself. Yes I can always just type my life away online, but its different when you actually communicate with a person. Is it just me or does anybody else get goosebumps from a very good conversation!?! As we were talking, I started listening to some Jorja Smith to calm me down from the tornado that was happening in my mind. It was all good, then I started thinking negative thoughts, and letting bullshit get to me :/ Here are some dope songs by Jorja Smith tho

 

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Jorja Smith

BLUE LIGHTS

TEENAGE FANTASY

FEBRUARY 3RD

FINE LINES

The kid fell asleep anyways, and I just made a nice little breakfast sandwich and a cup of tea to start my day… Though I should probably sleep, I can’t :/ Thanks though for listening hehe.

ALL PHOTOS ARE NOT MINE, CREDIT TO THEIR RIGHTFUL OWNERS

To Begin…

Okay… First post, and I’m really just going to introduce myself and the blog itself lol. Nothing too professional obviously, not doing this for publicity or what not, just a way to express myself, and have an outlet to go to in order to talk about music.  Because I don’t have people I can necessarily text and go crazy about a new album. Though, you’d be surprised what music people listen to, and why they like it. Its absolutely amazing.

Well, to begin, I really gravitate towards music categorized as “trap soul”. So as you could guess, artists like Bryson Tiller, Frank Ocean, H.E.R, Jorja Smith, Jhené Aiko, and God, the list could go on forever. There are so many talented artists out there who do such a magnificent job of putting imagery in their lyrics, and basically just taking your mind away from the realness of society. The world today can be so evil, yet so good, and music just allows me to take a deep breath, and feel at ease with my surroundings. Blah blah, call me corny, but that’s the reality of it. I listen to all types of music, except like screamo music (no offense if you like that). It really depends what mood I’m in. I could be listening to a banging piano instrumental, to some Doja Cat, “Moo”. But, trap soul and R&B will always be the key to my heart. So… some basics

  1. My favorite artist would probably be Frank Ocean.
  2. I feel like one of the best albums of 2018 is A$AP Rocky’s TESTING. I absolutely adored it.
  3. My favorite song… Hmm can’t choose, but I been listening to Bloodstream by Tokio Meyers, Carousel by Travis, and Oldie by Odd Future a lot currently.
  4. I have never been to a concert. Surprise surprise right. But, it because sometimes I have no money, wrong timing, or circumstances in general aren’t right. Though, H.E.R comes on tour for my birthday this year to my city soooo hmmm…
  5. Frank Ocean’s Blonde album is an absolute work of art. But, I can get into that on another post.

There is plenty more to say, but that’s all I got for now. I can’t wait for 2019 and have new music released. Best feeling ever, but yeah idk how to do this…. Bye? I guess lmao.